Despite Christmas being lovely and a happy day as we had April home, Boxing Day was far from it.
I have mentioned previously that both mine and Phil’s Nana’s were in hospital. My Nana has been in and out of hospital for some time. She managed to visit me in Carlisle hospital before I was taken to Middlesbrough, but soon after she ended up in hospital herself. We’ve never really quite known what was making her poorly, but she gradually kept getting worse.
Whenever she goes into hospital her memory starts to fade and she would talk about the past a lot and be very confused; the onset of dimentia, but this is not surprising at the ripe old age of 101. She always knew who we were, but couldn’t remember details day to day.
I was very close to my Nana, so was very hard when I was in hospital not seeing her and at that point she was too poorly to come and visit me or April when we were back in Carlisle. I managed to get to see her a few times, but this was not always easy when I had to be at the hospital with April all the time. She was very confused about what had happened to us and couldn’t understand why she hadn’t seen April, so we had to keep reminding her that she was a poorly baby. I printed out some photos of us both in the hospital, which she had on her wall, so she could remember where we were.
It got to a point where she was well enough to leave hospital, but not well enough to go home, so the sad decision was made that she needed to go into a care home.
She went into the care home on the 23rd December. She settled in quite well, so I went to see her on Christmas Eve. I’d not taken April to see her in the hospital as we couldn’t risk her getting any infections going into the hospital. I was hoping that once my Nana had been in the home for a week or so, she’d be well enough to take out and bring April to meet her. She kept asking about April
Unfortunately my Nana didn’t make it that long and passed away on Boxing Day. I spent a bit of time with her, but she was barely conscious. I held her hand and said my goodbyes. It was heart breaking, though I knew it was for the best as she has been tired for a long time. I got married in 2014 and I really didn’t think she would make that, so the fact she got this far was amazing.
My Nana knew that more than anything in the world I wanted a baby, so the day I told her I was pregnant she almost jumped out of her chair and hugged me so tight!
I am devastated that my Nana never got to meet April, but I feel like she was making way for a new life and her memory will live on in April.
Rest in peace my beautiful Nana xxx
Minnie Jackson 1914-2015