April being winded
Yesterday I went back to work. Now I know you are saying “WHAT!!?? is she crazy?” Believe me I would like to have the next year off with April, like most normal Mums who haven’t been through a traumatic experience like we have do. However, I have a bit of a different predicament…I run my own business and as it is a Limited Company, it employs me rather than me being “self employed”. In effect I pay myself maternity. Or something like that. I don’t get statutory maternity and I haven’t had any materntiy pay over the last 3 months. There is only so long that savings can keep you going. So, needs must.
Friends have often told me I’m a strong person and can deal with things really well, but this experience has actually shown me that yes, I am bloody strong. I mean how many people do you know who would have a baby, been in intensive care, nurtured their baby in SCBU, expressed 10 weeks worth of milk before due date…and went back to work in less than 3 months. Well, I’m either strong or nuts!
All through this experience I wasn’t going to let it defeat me and only a few days after my C-Section, did I get my slap on, get dressed and force myself out of bed. I had to do it for my baby girl!
So, yesterday I had my first meeting. I’ve scaled back the amount of work I’m doing and just concentrating on 3 or 4 of my main clients who have supported me through the last few months and patiently waited for me. Experiences like this put your life into perspective and even though I did get stressed that things weren’t getting done, and I felt so out of control, the world doesn’t stop if a press release isn’t written or a website is not updated. However, I have not built my business up from nothing after redundancy (I could write a boook!) to turn my back on it.
I felt nervous heading back into the boardroom so to speak, but if I didn’t start now I never would. I had told my client to be gentle with me and that he was…my first meeting was pain free and my baby mushed up brain still seemed to function! As long as I take it easy and don’t take on too much (but enough to pay the bills) I should be OK – just need to watch the old BP!
Not quite sure when I’m going to do the work juggling baby – however with an amazing Mam and Mother-in-law on hand and falling over themselves to look after me and help out I’m sure we can all do it together! If any one can I can! (I have to keep telling myself that!)
Tummy time with Daddy
Today, Daddy was off work with us as we had an appointment at the hospital. A few weeks ago April had to have blood tests and it had shown that her white blood cells were low. This meant that she was more prone to infection due to a low immune system. Today was time for more bloods to be taken. I know all parents will relate to this, but you need to get ready well in advance to get out of the house, take a shopping trolley full of equiptment with you and plan your movements around feeds. We timed getting to the hospital to coincide with her feeds 15 minutes early, but the staff on the Children’s Ward are always very punctual and we were seen right away.
April would usually have blood taken in a heel prick, which she has had done loads of times, but today it was taken out of her vein in the back of her hand. To ease the pain they give little ones tubes of sugar solution, which she loves (sweet tooth like Mammy!) However, there was still lots of screaming, but she always does amazing and after the initial shock soon calms down. We were in and out before we knew it! This afternoon we had a call from the hospital with good news…April’s cells were at a normal level from 88 up to 101, so they don’t need to see her again (whoo hoooo!!!!!) She just needs to go back to the hospital for her 6-8 weeks check in a couple of weeks and hopefully if she gets the all clear we won’t need to go back to the hospital for a year!
Our little miracle continues to amaze us every day!