So, the time came to leave April overnight. It is not something I’d wanted to do before. I’ve been asked away a couple of times, but the thought of it made me really upset and I just couldn’t leave her. I had to be away from April so much when she was first born, that every minute is precious. It’s not that I didn’t want anyone else to have her. I just wasn’t ready.
I’m not sure there is a right time to leave your baby overnight for anyone. I think it’s a really personal decision and when it feels right for you is the right time. With the types of jobs Phil and I have and that a lot of my friends live away it was inevitable that I’d have to leave her at some point. I wouldn’t want her to get to 5 and still not be able to leave her.
So, I was shortlisted for an award (check me out!) – as Sole Trader of the Year in the Enterprise Vision Awards. I won this category last year and it was a fantastic event, that I decided to enter again. When I was shortlisted we then had the decision of what we were going to do…stay over, or drive back?
Last year I was 26 weeks preganant, so I didn’t get to celebrate properly when I won. I decided we should stay over. I felt that Phil and I needed a night away and it was a good opportunity for me to leave April when I was with Phil. I’d rather leave her when I was with him in case I was an emotional wreck and he’d understand how I felt, rather than be a blubbering mess on a girls weekend away.
We left April with my Mam. Everything was prepared and notes were written, but I knew April would be fine…probably enjoyed a night of being spoils by the grandparents. I thought I would be OK and I was until I got in the car. I had a little moment (for about 5 minutes) but soon pulled myself together.
It was really refreshing to feel like “Lisa & Phil” again, just have some time to chill and be together. We could stay up late, not have to worry about routine and drink…lots!
So, I WON!!! Woo hoo. To say I was overwhelmed and emotional was an understatement. I honestly didn’t think I’d win two years in a row, so had resigned myself to the fact I wasn’t going to win. When they called out my name I was in shock. I had to then give a speech to 600 people and I froze. I could not get the words out and just burst out crying. Luckily the audience were amazing and just cheered me on. Last year I was cool and composed. I deserved the award, but this year I felt like I deserved it so much more. I have been through a really tough year (obviously), but despite everything I still managed to run a business and keep things going. This year’s award felt like recognition for that.
Lots of champagne was consumed, dancing was done and a trip to the casino too! WE had a great night and really let our hair down. Not only did we leave April, but it gave us the opportunity to reflect a bit about what we’ve been through the past year.
The next day the hangover was horrible!!!!! The journey home was even worse!!!! I would say it was nice to have a lie in, but the hangover didn’t help! It was so lovely to get home though to see April…and guess what she had been a little angel!
So, I did it – I left her overnight…I was emotional at times (but that is a whole other blog post), but I did it and feel happy knowing that I’d be able to do it again if needed.